Corona Virus Quarantine Day #150: Tomorrow Will Worry About Itself!: August 17, 2020:
Today I started back to school and I was a hot mess this morning. My school year started as it always does…with a religious retreat. This year due to social distancing and the ever so lovely Covid we took our staff retreat to Prairie Star Ranch and GOD ordered up the most perfect and beautiful weather for our day outside retreating. If you have never been to Prairie Star Ranch it is incredibly beautiful and peaceful there. I meant to take more pictures but I was too busy enjoying the conversations I was having with people I haven’t seen in 5 months to worry about pictures.
My favorite part of retreat was when we read Matthew Chapter 6: 25-34 because I spent most of the previous night not sleeping. I woke up feeling sick and had a rough start to my day. Driving down to Prairie Star I felt off the whole way.
When this passage was read to me, it was like GOD slapping me in the face. Why was I up half the night worrying about the things I cannot control (which is a long list right now)? The lines that stood out the most to me were the following ones:
25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life[a]?… Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
Yikes. Admittedly, I struggle with not having a plan or itinerary and I struggle even more with the unknowns of life. Lately, there have been a lot of these. I pray everyday that GOD will show me the way and that I can put aside any worry I may have…but as the school year is starting and there are still so many unknowns I have been having a difficult time.
This is exactly the reminder I needed. “Each day has enough trouble of its own.” Truer words…especially lately. We now live in a world where we can literally only live the day we are currently living in and really that is what GOD wants for us anyways; to enjoy each day, live each day to the fullest and to be our best self each day. There are 1,440 minutes in a day. That my friends…is a lot of minutes. I like to remind myself that I can get a lot done in those minutes and go to bed each night knowing I’ve given my best to everyone. So, if like me, you wake up stressed out or worried you won’t get it all done…remind yourself you’ve got 1,440 minutes to make it happen.
After we read this passage from scripture we had 30 minutes alone to walk the beautiful grounds of Prairie Star Ranch and it was such a blessing. 30 uninterrupted minutes where I could walk and talk to GOD and make a plan to conquer my stress.
Our retreat setting today!
Some things that struck me when I was walking and talking to GOD….
I cannot control a lot of what’s going on (or really any of it), but I can control my approach to it. I’m not foolish enough to believe that there won’t be another sleepless night or anxiety ridden morning but I am smart enough to know that I can waste my time worrying about it or get up and make the best of the situation and my 1,440 minutes. I plan to do the latter.
To all my teacher friends…when I saw this I thought of all of you and I sent a prayer up for you. I know a lot of people have a lot to say about teachers and their jobs in general but I feel like lately it’s been a lot more intense. I love you. I appreciate you. I think you are all doing hard things that many other people wouldn’t have the courage to do. We teachers…we were created to love and serve. Keep up the good work!
While walking on the gravel around the property I saw a bright orange rock in the middle of all the other silver and gray rocks that typically make up gravel. That immediately made me think of our children. Cooper and Fletcher are always looking for rocks and Fletcher has a large collection of them on our back porch. I was partly stressed this morning because I was leaving them for like 12 hours and I’ve literally spent every waking moment with them for 5 months. I know that rock (which was the only one I saw of it’s kind) was there to remind me that even though I’m not with the kids at home, they are with me wherever I go. They were fine. I needed to stop worrying.
The picture doesn’t do it justice. It really stood out. You better believe I put that bad boy in my pocket. GOD is good. I needed this little reminder today in a big way!
Finally, I learned something I really already knew, but I was reminded of it in a big way today, and that is that I have an enormous amount of things to be grateful for. I took my own advice and for part of my walk today I practiced the art of listing every single thing I am grateful for, even things we don’t usually think of like legs, showers and air conditioning and my list was crazy long. So even when things seem stressful or uncertain I just need to use more of my 1,440 minutes of the day to send some thanks up to the big guy for all he has given me.
So as we all forge ahead into the unknown uncertainty of all things Covid-19 I know one thing for sure, I am going to read this passage more often. I am going to try to let tomorrow worry about itself. I am going to fail sometimes and that is ok. Nevertheless, I will be praying, I will be showing gratitude and I will be cherishing every single one of the 1,440 minutes of my day so that not one second of my day will be wasted on worry. Wish me luck.